Last week, someone emailed me a question regarding their prayers for healing for friends and family. They wondered if they were “doing something wrong”, because sometimes they would see the manifestation of healing and other times there would be no healing. Haven’t we all been there! I pondered the question for a few days before I responded and below is what God gave me to share with her, with a few added thoughts. I hope it blesses you.
Praying for healing for someone or for a change in any situation is tough. The million dollar question always is: Where does my faith end and God’s will begin?
I don’t believe you’re missing any piece. It’s those tough times when God’s will doesn’t line up to what we want, that causes us to struggle and question Him. Why does God not move on our behalf when we’re praying, we’re believing, standing on His word, fasting…and maybe even crossing our fingers and toes. We do everything we know to do, but nothing changes. We get frustrated and yes…angry. We pray, believe, and have faith…but at the end of the day, we have to say, “God it’s your will, not mine”. Ask God to give you peace concerning His will. It doesn’t mean we don’t pray and seek God. It just means that we understand that God ultimately knows what He’s doing and why…and He knows best.
After I typed these words, I had to go back and think about things in my own life that I was praying for. I picked up a bible to read something…anything that God wanted to show me, and just like God, I turned Matthew 26. When I first begin to read it, I thought “this is not speaking to me and has nothing to do with what I’m looking for”. However, as I continued to read, I came upon where Jesus went to the Garden of Gethsemane to pray. I said to myself, “here it is”. Jesus went to the Garden of Gethsemane to pray because he knew what he was about to suffer. He prayed in verse 39 “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.” He prayed again in verse 42 “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”
Just like us, Jesus didn’t want to experience the pain and suffering He had to endure. He was God, but He was one-hundred percent man also, and he knew pain. Gethsemane means “olive press”. “The process used to extract olive oil was a laborious one. Whole olives were put into a circular stone basin in which a millstone sat. A donkey or other animal was then harnessed to the millstone and walked in a circle, rolling the stone over the olives and cracking them. The cracked olives were scooped up into burlap bags, which were then stacked beneath a large stone column – a gethsemane. The enormous weight forced the precious oil to drip from the fruit into a groove and on into a pit at the base of the gethsemane, from which it was collected.”
Right now, you may be in your Gethsemane. You’re being pressed, cracked, and broken. It’s okay, because God is squeezing his anointing out of you. Continue to seek God, pray, and fast, but at the end of the day, you have to say “May YOUR will be done”. You still may not understand, but God will give you peace about it. He knows what He’s doing….trust Him. Where does God’s will begin? It begins in the Garden. Take a deep breath, and know it’ll be okay.
Love you to life!