A few days ago Matthew and I were talking in the kitchen. We had just come from riding our bikes and I began to tell him how as a little girl, I didn’t know how to ride a bike. When I would go over my friend’s house who had a bike, all of the girls would take turns riding her bike. However, when it came time for me to ride I would say “That’s okay, I don’t want to ride right now”. They never knew that I didn’t know how to ride a bike.
When I turned, I think 10 years old, my parents gave me a bike for my birthday. I remember having the bike, but not riding it. My brothers would ride it and one day they rode it down the steps off the back porch. I was fighting mad and it was at that point that I decided to teach myself how to ride my bike. I went out back, and after a couple of times of almost falling off, I mastered it. That was determination.
I also remember one-day walking down the street with my older brother Ricky. I was probably around 7 years old. As we walked, two older boys were walking toward us. It was cold so I had a coat on and my hands were in my pocket. I had a nickel in my right pocket and was rubbing it in my hand. Something told me that those boys were going to try and steal our money. As we walked toward each other, I took my nickel out of my pocket and every so easily, put it in my mouth.
When we met up with the older boys, they stopped us and asked for our money. My brother gave him his money. I on the other hand, shrugged my shoulders and put up my hands as if to say “I don’t have anything”, while looking them dead in their face. I never opened my mouth. They went on and when we got home I took my nickel out of my mouth. That was discernment and ingenuity.
That was a long time ago and sometimes life will make you forget who you are. We allow society, friends, people, and sometimes family determine who we are. We forget that we are the same persons we were as children when we were determined to tie our own shoes or feed ourselves. We’re the same persons who stood up to bullies who were messing with their little sister (Evie – that’s for you!). We’re the same ones who when our friends wanted to sneak out and meet boys, we said “no” and risked being called a goodie two shoes.
Who are you? If life has beat you down and you feel yourself just existing, take your mind back and remember who you were. Fight for who you were and are called to be. There’s a little girl or boy inside of you who is saying “Come on…we’ve got work to do…don’t quit…remember when we did __________” Fill in the blank.
God’s purposes for you do not change. Everything you need for your purpose is already inside of you. All you need to do is dig down and seek God for it. As the song says “I will be what you’ve called me to be, I say yes, Lord I agree, my desire passionately is to be what you’ve called me to be, that’s what I’ll be”.
Jeremiah 1:5 – “Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you. Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you: …”
I’ll ask you again…who are you?
Love you to life!